Lucky After All

So... mea culpa.  I'm an ass.

On Monday I got all whiny about how, despite my professional luck, I have no luck in my personal life. In my defense, I believed it at the time.  And it's true that I have zero luck in the romantic arena. Zilch. So in that respect, my Rule-Two-breaking self-pity was justified.

But this morning I was driving in to work thinking about an email exchange I'd just had with my accountant. It went something like this:

Acct: "Hey, There's a credit card charge for $3895 to CCB on 1/5. Do you remember what that was for?"

Me: "That was for sperm. Bet you don't get THAT answer often, do ya?"

Acct: "Oh gosh you made me laugh out out! Can't say I've ever had that answer, no... but it's certainly one to remember!"

And what I realized is this: In the six or so months since I decided to try to get pregnant using donor sperm, every single person I know has been supportive. And not just supportive. Enthusiastic. Excited. Encouraging. And every other positive word that begins with E.

My family is totally on board. My friends are thrilled. My colleagues are interested and excited. My doctor thinks it's great. My accountant went out of her way to read my blog and send me a lovely, supportive email. My acupuncturist gave me hug when I told her I was planning to start trying soon.  

And it has to be said: You guys out in the blogosphere are an endless source of inspiration and support. You're also, very often, the source of much needed reality checks when I'm freaking out.

It's astonishing, really. Every single person I know has helped me overcome my doubts and feel happy about this decision.

No negativity. No doubts. No discouragement.

No exceptions.

Just love and support.

And if that's not lucky, I don't know what is.

Comments

[Julie]

We're all crossing our fingers for you Sarah, in this and all areas.

[Liz]

I don't know if I'd call it lucky...I get the feeling it's more of a what-goes-around-comes-around kind of thing. I don't know you, really, except what I read hear, but somehow I just know that you are all those E words to the people in your life and now they have the chance to give it right back.

[Chris]

I have to agree with what Liz said.

You didn't/don't have to share this journey that you are on with anyone. Let alone perfect strangers roaming the web. But you have put yourself out there and I think people respect that.

You come across as such a "real" person and I think that makes me want to see you succeed and get everything that you desire.

If I were a single woman in your position and came across your blog...you would be a Godsend. Any woman who wishes to be a mother should always have the opportunity to be one.
You'll be a great one! Plus, we midwest gals have stick together! :-)

[Heather]

Thrilled, indeed. Enough to let you have a good wallow every now and then.