Sarah In Wonderland

Tonight I'm a little overwhelmed with things I want to write about.  

I want to write about the color red.  I want to write about my ovaries.  I want to write about how much I appreciate my friends.  I want to write about my sperm donor.  I want to write about time, and what I should do with it now that I have some.  I want to write about taking back my house.  I want to write about the wonder of naps.  I want to write about writing.  I want to write about spring.  I want to write about the difference between alone and lonely.  I want to write about the joy of cutting flowers in your own back yard.

There's just so much.  

One of the many things I loved in Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland was the notion of muchness.  Alice lost hers, then found it again.

I think lately I'm feeling a little like Alice.  (Which, appropriately, I just mis-typed as Alive.)  Like my lost muchness is rushing home.

I missed it.  I'm glad it's back.

I hope it stays.

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Where is your muchness?

Comments

[amy]

I hope you write about the difference between being alone and lonely because I am feeling very lonely right now. Very discouraged with dating. I'm at that age where all of my exes are changing their FB status to "engaged" from single or they are posting pictures of their kids. I really need to get my "much" mo-jo back because it's certainly lost!

[Jessica]

I liked that part of the movie, too. One thing I've found is that my muchness recently took on the form of being overwhelmed with everything that felt broken in my life: missed opportunities, unachieved goals, a profound sense of loneliness. On the surface everything felt fine, but I kept wanting to FIX everything in my life. Now I'm trying to work on transforming my muchness into happiness and fulfillment (and achievable goals)!

[Sarah Fain]

Amy and Jessica-- Loneliness just flat out sucks. But muchness helps! So does "doing the active thing," my very favorite piece of stolen wisdom. There's definitely a big, long post to be done on this! In the meantime, good luck with the mojos and muchness!